Dear Jackie
Just got home from work. Tired. I know how you felt when you worked so hard and long hours.
Little Jace had a tooth pulled today and he as cute as a button. He is looking so grown up.
I haven't seen a picture of Jax lately but know he has also grown so much.
Can you believe our dollbaby is walking? Jackie you are in her so much. I  know she is  alot like you. Heather loves that she is and so do I.
It is the 21st and I am missing you and thinking about you being gone almost 6 months. Jackie it so wasn't fare that God took you home. I am trying to understand him and why, but know that is not the way things work with God. He chooses and we have to deal with it. I know you are happy and you are wanting us to follow you . It is so hard for me to pray and believe anymore. I am really scared about this. God has always been my driving force in my life. I always believed that if we ask and believed it would be done. I know you believed that too. I just am so messed up right now about all that, that I do not know how to pray. I promised you that you were not going to die, cause I believed with all my heart that God heard all our prayers and he was using you for everyone to see the miracle that he was doing. What happened? I do not know. I am sorry that I promised and I should not have. I could not make you well. I wanted to, I tried but I couldn't I am so sorry. Please forgive me. I love you and miss you so much.