Dear Jackie,

I started to watch Big Brother tonight because Heather said she got you and her Dad into watching it. I lasted until Amanda got voted off. Ha! I would rather be in here writing to you, but I wanted to have that show to share with your daughter and her Dad. Sorry Heather, I cannot get into it. Maybe because I started watching it too late. Maybe next season I will be able to get into it.

Jackie, tonight I saw your little granddaughter standing and eating all by herself. Heather sent me a video and Jackie, she is a spitting image of Heather. There is no way you would not know that that little doll baby doesn't belong to your daughter.

It is Sunday night now and has been awhile since I have written to you. You know me, when the sun doesn't shine, I get kind of down. It has been cloudy, raining and flooding and just nasty here for the last few weeks. I get too sad about everything, and didn't want to post in that sort of frame of mind.

I saw you in the clouds today on my way to a job. You were bent over picking a weed. I knew it was a weed because you had your mouth in that prefect way you always do when there is a stubborn weed to pick. I pulled off the road and just watched as the cloud you were in slowing passed away. I cried for you and wanted you to know that I saw you.

Jackie, I really miss you. I know you are with Mother, Daddy, Don, Barb, and Ann, but I still miss you and never got enough time with you. I want so much for you to know your grand babies. I fell guilty cause I got to know mine and am with them daily. I know how much little Jas and Jax meant to you. I also know you never got enough time with them. Now, there is little Sophie. Jackie she is such a doll. She is able to wave ‘Hi’ now. Can you believe that she went from that tiny little thing to a person that is going to be like her Mimi.

I will always love your family and they will always be a part of my family. I promise you that.

Love you Jackie